Saturday I felt compelled to (again) work sigil magick. I was focused, the work came to me very easily, and yet while I was composing the sigil, I felt an edge of hysteria.
I left my paper sit overnight.
Was this working in error, I wondered? Was my fear pushing the work? If I waiting till my emotions abated, would I lose the momentum?
I tucked it away under my goddess statue. If I couldn’t figure it out, she surely could.
And this is where I stand lately, on the mental plane of balancing the very real visceral fear/response to the injustice I see – the misogyny, the greed and unfettered cruelty – and adding in magical work to my activism.
Is it my ego or is a need?
Yesterday I felt the focused calmness I expect, and confidently burned my sigil, in the garden, in front of the goddess grotto I created. It may be my last outside working, Ohio weather being quite fickle.
I don’t have a point to this post, except to try and stay with the blogging. The hysteria though, was a new thing. I am giving myself a time-out from the news/social media stuff, but reminding everyone to vote. Call your reps, be heard.
For years, I kept my mouth shut – it’s how I was raised – kids are seen and not heard, good girls do or don’t, that’s not how a lady acts – and I see how easy it is to dismiss people like me. The ones who follow the rules, who step aside, who suck it up, who put others first.
I’m not advocated being a jerk – and there are people in my life who will always be first in my heart.
But I also see how those who have an agenda can use this to pat us on the head, and move on with their cruelty/environmental destruction/control.
So, if you have a magical practice, I encourage you to discover an activist activity.
If you’re an activist and can add your magical practice to help you and your cause, go for it.
This is the time to step up and step out.